Whatever

So I put on 500g last week. Want to hear my excuses? Nah me either. Suffice to say it was the curse of the weekend again. This week is the week before TTOM which I traditionally put on due to fluid retention. That sucks coz it means I prob won't make my 77's kg goal for the Spring to Summer challenge. Also tomorrow we take off for Busselton for the boy's Ironman Triathlon. We're staying till Monday too which means lots of food and drink (eek). Going to make a big effort to exercise while I'm down there to minimise the damage. Given my weigh in day is Friday, not sure what I'll do. I can either take Thursday as my weigh in, or bring my scales with me. Hmmmm

Started work at 7.30am this morning and I'm flipping exhausted... and hungry. Trying to hold on til 12 before lunch though. Might finish early though as I have a super sucky headache at the moment. Early mornings do not agree with me! (and yes I know that 7.30am isn't terribly early for some people but it is for me!).

Anyhoo, just had a catch up on your blogs and see that everyone is pretty much going well - good for you guys! I've tried to comment on most.

Best get back to work,

later gators,

Em :)

Looking back Week 4

Hey kids,

I'm so stoked. Finally back to my lowest weight again! Was there in August and today I'm back at 77.7kg. Disappointing I couldn't lose 100g more just to be officially my lowest weight ever... to be honest (TMI Alert!) I think I need to do a poo so I think I technically am! hahahaha This week I lost 1kg. It's been soooo long since I've lost 1kg in a week... in fact..not since May! A few things have contributed to this I believe. For one, I didn't put on over 1kg during the weekend as I normally do so it was a good start to the work week. Also, no chocolate this week. OMG! I KNOW! It's truly amazing. The other thing is that I'm back in the mindset of not caring about food. Not looking for food. Not hungry. It's fantastic. But it did mean I didn't even eat dinner on Wednesday night, coz I didn't want to. Then last night I don't know what happened. I had a piece of cheese and then felt uncomfortable for the next couple of hours. Then all of a sudden had to run to the toilet where I vomitted (not PB) what appeared to be the water I finished drinking about 5hrs earlier. And cucumber from lunch came out of my nose. No idea what that all about. Very weird. So no dinner last night either. Anyway I don't care. That's 1.9kg in 2 weeks. Yippedy doo!

I still didn't manage to do 5kms but I did run around Tomato Lake twice which equated to about 3.2kms. Even got attacked by some ducks protecting their little ducklings. They didn't seem to understand my puffing out "I'm just running past little duckies, I'm not going to hurt you!"

Unfortunately we have a big weekend this weekend. In actual fact we don't have a Fri/Sat/Sun without some plans until Christmas!! Going to friend's place for dinner tonight, then friends to our place for dinner Saturday night, then even more friends for Brunch on sunday. Seriously, we have too many friends!

I cancelled this morning's appointment with Bowater as I'm losing weight and I think in a good space bandwise, so made another appointment just before Christmas.

Been working on our wedding invitations. They're going to be sooo cool. We just have to buy some glue and put them together now. When they're done, I'll scan them in here so you guys can have a peak.

Following the Sunday Program's piece about lapband (which I haven't seen but allegedly was quite anti lapband and very one sided), there were a few questions regarding surgery from a few non-surgery people at the We are Slimming forums. I wrote some pretty extensive posts addressing their queries, that might be handy should anyone be reading my blog who is considering surgery (or not!). Check it out here. The danger with biased and one-sided reporting is that people who have not been educated or researched this type of surgery judge those who have based on these reports which can often be hurtful. Everyone on the forum who commented was very respectful though and I hope I managed to educate them a bit further on the topic. I'm by no means trying to convert people to have the surgery, I just want people to understand why it's not an easy decision, nor an easy way to lose weight.

Well that's it from me today,

Have a great weekend!

Em :)

Reccap of Week 3 of SIS Challenge

Sorry for not posting on Friday. Sooo busy at work.. you know organising wedding stuff :) hahaha

Anyway ended up losing 900g last week which is the most I've lost in one week in fricken ages! So I was stoked. I probably was retaining from the week before but I'll take it anyway! Let's have a look at those goals:

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Overall Goals:
- Be in the 77’s     Got about 800g to go in 3 weeks (Totally do-able!)
- Exercise 5 days per week      Yep have done this each week
- Drink at least 1L of water per day       Think I've missed 1 day. Usually drinking about 2L a day though.
- Clean out top drawer in bedside table           Not yet... still time though!
- Run 5kms without stopping        Bah haven't even been running yet!

Weekly Goals:
Week 1 – No iced coffee      Check!
Week 2 – No ice cream        Check!
Week 3 – No cheese & Complete the John Hughes Big Walk 15kms   Check on the cheese, but was in Bunbury so couldn't do 15kms. I did walk about 8-9kms though
Week 4 – No chocolate
Week 5 – No coke
Week 6 – No snacking between meals

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So working on the whole No chocolate thing right now. Forgot about the challenge on Friday and had a crunchie so will try to go Sat-Sat. Today was my first big test. 2.30pm came around and I was jonesing for one but had a yoghurt instead. The next four days will be killer!

Anyhoo, check out the Masterchef Lemon Curd Layer Cake GB and I made on Saturday night. We bought a crepe pan especially and ended up making twice as many crepes as we needed as we started having a 'crepe-off' competition! Took us about 4hours to do the bloody thing as things need to set or thicken or whatever. But it turned out beautifully - and of course completely fattening! Shhhhh... it's a sometimes food!!! GB's family were over yesterday so they all had some and loved it.

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Scheduled to see Bowater on Friday and was sure I'd want a fill but struggled too much last week during TTOM so think I might hold off for another few weeks and see how I go.

Week 2 Challenge Recap

Grrrrr... more grrrrr.... yet more grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Have put on 200g this week. I'm so disappointed but only have myself to blame. Have stayed away from icecream since the choc top and have exercised 5 times this week. I have been drinking RIDICULOUS amounts of water. At least 2L a day, sometimes 3-4L! However, it was GB's birthday on Friday. Went out for dinner, had cocktails, wine, dessert... Then Saturday had lunch with his folks (another cocktail, more wine)... Saturday afternoon - caught up with his mates at the Balmoral (more wine plus wedges!). Sunday I surprised him with lunch at Millbrook Winery with all our friends. Great food (fattiest thing I probably could have chosen - Duck!... MORE WINE!!! (Seriously, their wine is bloody awesome!). Anyway, I'm sure you can sense a theme there! Then I ate my body weight in mars bar & chocolate fudge slice, cheesecake on Tuesday after one of my receptionists retired. Come to think of it I was lucky to get away with only putting on 200g! 

I'm also due for TTOM in a few days, so perhaps could be retaining. It sure does explain my mood lately! I'm seriously grumpy. We're off to Bunbury this weekend for a triathlon so the boys can have a trial run before the Ironman in December. We're camping - which I don't mind normally but it's going to be farking freezing. Plus the boys get together and become obnoxious annoying drunks, the only other partner going is pretty much exactly the same (She spent 4 hrs of an engagement party sitting in the toilet), and I just don't have anything to talk to her about, you know? Tried to convince the other partner to go but she has things on this weekend so couldn't. So the only thing getting me through spending a weekend in Bunbury (no offence Bunbury people!) is that I'd planned for us to all go to Casella's Tapas which has a pretty good rep for dinner tonight. But GB just pointed out that we can't do that now coz we're all taking our dogs and can't leave them unattended at the caravan park. So I have fully cracked the shits. Not that I didn't know about the dogs, but I hadn't put two and two together on it.

And you know what else is pissing me off? You people!!! Leave a farking comment every once in a while!!! I'm such a whiny bitch right now! Must try to get out of my mood. Sorry for the outburst, I just wonder if anyone gets anything out of my rambles besides the 3 people who regularly comment and now I've probably alienated everyone else anyway!!! I guess I really do this for my own purpose, sort of a journal of sorts anyway, but being a fatty - I do require positive reinforcement. Even if you want to tell me "snap out of it you whiny ho-bag!"

Wedding stuff is starting to gear up. We're working on our invites wording etc and hope to have them out early January. We were going with the minimilist look at the reception being that it's a cocktail party and I didn't see the point but then I started thinking how it wouldn't look special blah blah blah so now looking at hiring chair covers for the few tables that will be scattered around plus possibly those high bar tables. Looked at ottomans and benches but far too expeno to hire. I'm stressing about money as it is!!

Anyhoo, I'm going to take my mood and emerse it into reading job applications for our reception position...

Hope all are well,

Em :)

Challenge Week 2

Hiya,

So I got through the week with no iced coffee.... amazing! Exercised 5 days out of the week too! Including a 10km walk around the river on Thursday night. Other than that though I didn't really do much different. Struggled with dinner a few of the nights and was quite ill on Wednesday night. PB'd up dinner and then had excrutiating backpain all night - didn't feel stuck though. So weird. I did lose 500g though which I'm pretty happy with.

Friday was GB's 35th birthday. To celebrate he went out in the morning before I woke up and ran 21kms. The equivalent of a half-marathon. Fricken amazing. Another goal of his ticked off. We both took the day off from work which was nice. We took a walk down to Tomato Lake and had a coffee (my first iced coffee in a week!), then caught up with a friend for lunch in the city at The Lucky Shag. After that we toodled off to the movies and saw All About Steve. We were the only ones in the cinemas which should have twigged us to the fact it was shite. Lordy bigordy what a big pile of stinking dog poo that movie was! After that we had a quick drink at our local pub then got frocked up for date night. As it worked it out it was his turn to organise it! We went to The Old Swan Brewery and had a couple of drinks at the bar. Yummy argentinian chardonnay! Checked out the menu there for shits and giggles. It's basically a grill - lots of steak. One of which was a 900g steak of which the cow was hand reared, grass fed, wrapped in bubble wrap, lined with gold and cost $110!!! Wowzer! We went to dinner at the other restaurant there called Zafferanos. We had a table overlooking the river which was gorgeous.  They had one of my fave cocktails on the menu (and is quite hard to find) - a Jo Jo Ivory. So I started with one of those and GB had a Martini. It was a pretty pricey restaurant (thank goodness for the Entertainment Book!) but the food was delicious. I had the red emperor which was a special with carrot puree, lemon buerre, and scalloped potatos. Sooooo nice. One of the nicest pieces of fish I've had in ages. GB had a mixed seafood plate which he said was awesome too. Then, because we're slow learners, we had a look at the dessert menu. GB decided he wanted cheese so I got the pannacotta e torte with caramal bananas (YUM). About a quarter of the way through I thought I was going to vomit. Not because it was stuck - because I was soooooo full! Both of us ended up leaving about half. Oh well!

The festivities continue today with lunch with his parents and catching up with his mates for drinks this afternoon. He doesn't know that I've organised a surprise lunch with all our friends at the Millbrook Winery tomorrow! Going to have to squeeze in some exercise somewhere so I don't put on 2kgs over the weekend!!!

Anyway - confession - already blew my no ice cream challenge for Week 2 by having a choc top at the movies yesterday - oops! But I will go saturday to saturday with no ice cream I promise!

Hope all are well!

Em :)

Challenge begins!

Week 1 Day 1. No iced coffee so far, but I have only been awake for a couple of hours. Oh yeah and I had a choc thickshake from Macca's on the way in. Geez I'm seriously useless. 400g loss in the past week so back into the 70's for the start of the challenge. I'm really going to look at portion sizes too. I'm sure I've been going way over the 1/2 to 1 cup rule.

Very excited for GB. He's decided to enter his first ever triathlon. As I've mentioned before, he and two of his friends are doing the Busselton Ironman Triathlon in December but he's decided to try it out himself in a sprint triathlon on Sunday. It's a 750m swim, 20km bike, 5km run which he can piss in separately so I'm sure he'll string it together ok. He borrowed his friend's expeno racing bike the other day and stacked it riding to work. I think he broke his pinky finger too! Plus grazed his leg down one side. Mostly just his pride injured though I think.

The fill I had last week has had some effect. I'm not as hungry as I was which is awesome and I'm feeling restriction kick in earlier which is good too. Still feel like my portions are too big but I'd rather try to work with that myself than get more fill in at this stage.

Hope everyone is well!

Em :)

Spring into Summer Challenge

The Spring into Summer 6 Week Challenge starts over at the We Are Slimming forums this week. I'm keeping my Friday weigh in's so my challenge will actually begin this Friday. I've set my goals though. I've decided to have overall goals that I want to achieve and also weekly goals of things I want to do but don't think I'd be able to keep up for the entire 6 weeks. Baby steps as they say! Anyway I'll be updating my progress on the forums and here.

Overall Goals:
- Be in the 77's
- Exercise 5 days per week
- Drink at least 1L of water per day
- Clean out top drawer in bedside table
- Run 5kms without stopping

Weekly Goals:
Week 1 - No iced coffee
Week 2 - No ice cream
Week 3 - No cheese & Complete the John Hughes Big Walk 15kms
Week 4 - No chocolate
Week 5 - No coke
Week 6 - No snacking between meals

Go me!

Countdown to Fill time

I'm hanging out for a fill.. I needs it .. I wants it...

Here's why - I'm hungry an hour after I've eaten, I wake up hungry, all I can think about is FOOD, I can't stay out of the fridge or cupboard, I'm eating too quickly, I'm eating too much, I'm eating too much crap and (and here's the clincher) I'M PUTTING ON WEIGHT!

So you can see I really do need a fill - all the signs are there.

The question is - how much?

In the back of my mind still remains the horribleness of everything I eat getting stuck, of night reflux, of waking up choking, of spending more time than I ever care to in the toilet, of being to frightened to eat anything at anyone's house or going out to dinner. I never want to get back to that stage again. But I clearly need some fill. I just want enough to control the hunger and portions but not so much so that I can't drink water again. I'm still 1 ml down from having the 2mls removed in August so I definately don't want 1ml in. I'm thinking somewhere between 0.25ml and 0.5ml. I guess I'll see what Bowater says about it.

To get back into the right frame of mind I'm joining into the "Spring into Summer" 6 week challenge over at We Are Slimming starting next week. If anyone else out there is interested, make sure you head over there and sign up! I'll post my goals and results here as well.

OK well I'd better do some work.

Cheerio chaps!